I’m gonna start living out loud
My soul’s been dying
To scream and shout
And shatter the silence
It’s a beautiful sound when each moment counts
Starting right now, I’m gonna start living out loud
I’ve always been a quiet person. Avoiding confrontation. Introverted. You know the type. I’ve never minded it really, but it can be a little limiting. There are certain situations that I try to avoid and many jobs that I would never want (management, politician, etc.). Most of the jobs I’ve had have basically just been cheap labour. It’s kind of a bummer being young and thinking that I’ll have to settle for a job consisting of mindless repetition and ‘working for the weekend.’ When this photography job came along (which has ended for now), I got pretty excited. This was my first chance to have a full time job doing something that I enjoyed.
The job turned out to be more focused on the people that I was photographing rather than the photography itself. Not being a ‘people person,’ this was very difficult for me. There were days that I would come home feeling like a failure. I had one week that started off like hell. I listened to students all day complaining that they’ve never had a good school photo, or that they’re ugly, or they’re upset that they can’t make a goofy face (cause that’ll make for a nice attractive school photo right?).
That week was like a moment of truth for me. I either had to quit that job or figure out how to be the type of person that succeeds (whatever that might mean) in that sort of situation. Each day I conquered something. The job went from feeling like a factory process of taking crappy pictures of students with crappy attitudes, to this amazing job in which (in just a few seconds) I could get students thinking positive and having fun.
Not a bad week for somebody who so often fears people!
I kinda discovered a soundtrack of songs over that week.
